Kuch pal ka saath

कुछ पल का साथ

jindagi agar asan hota toh koi khuda ko kyun yaad karta;
koi kisike bharose kyun jindagi bitata;
aur kisike yaad mein din raat aasoo bahata
Kuch lamhe jindagi ke  yu hi gujar jaye –
muskurate hue, gungunate hue –
toh kuch pal ka साथ, jindagi ka saath mil jaye

जिंदगी अगर आसान होता तोह कोई खुदा को क्यों याद करता,
कोई किस्सी के भरोसे क्यों जिंदगी बिताता;
और किसी के याद में दिन रात आँसू बहता,
कुछ लम्हे जिंदगी के युही गुज़र जायेमुस्कुराते हुए, गुनगुनाते हुए,
तोह कुछ पल का साथ, जिंदगी का साथ मिल जाये I

dil chahe kuch khwab dekhu mein,
magar eh dost hum duniya ki nazar mein baggi ho gaye
khwab mein jindagi jine ki adat toh nahin
magar kisi ka saath kuch pal ke liye mil jaye,
toh haseen jindagi ban jaye

दिल चाहे कुछ ख्वाब देखू में,
मगर  दोस्त हम दुनिया की नज़र में बागी हो गए;
ख्वाब में जिंदगी जीने की आदत तोह नहीं,
मगर किसी का साथ कुछ पल के लिए मिल जाये,
तोह हसीन जिंदगी बन जाये II

jante hai ki dil ki tamanna dil hi mein rah jayegi,
magar bina khuaissh ke jindagi tanha ho jaye gi
yeh tum pe hai ki saath chalo ya rooth ke saath chod do,
hum toh sirf gujarish kar sakte hai,
aur ummeed pe jinda hai hum!!!

जान्ते है की दिल की तमन्ना दिल ही में रह जाएगी,
मगर बिना खुवाइश के जिंदगी तनहा हो जायेगी,
यह तुम पे है की साथ चलो या रूठ के साथ छोड़ दो,
हम तोह सिर्फ गुजारिश कर सकते है,
और उम्मीद पे जिन्दा है हम!!!

Feb 17 2008
Davis, CA

FEW THINGS

Few things in life are just meant for you
Few things are made of sugar and candy
Few things in life make it lighter and brighter
Few things in life are far and fleeting
Few things in life bring tears and heartbreaks
Few things in life are built like sand castles
Few things in life are better left ‘as it is’

L’enfant Plaza Hotel
Washington DC , 31 Oct 2007

Heart knows no reason

So far away from all the familiar things life doesn’t seem very kind. Heart longs for the familiar sights of friends, loved ones and the things that bring a smile.

Heart sees no reason ‘not’ to fall in love with the past thoughts, by gone moments and the flighty and mischievous instances. The hidden tear in the corner of the eye reminds of the times my heart was touched by a thorn or some moments that bring back floods of memory.

Heart sees no reason why not to fall in love with the autumn leaves, or the rain drops. The breeze that caressed my face felt like your touch – so gentle and pure. Yet when I opened my eyes …loneliness seemed to engulf me like a snowy blanket.

My heart sees no reason why we can’t be together. It refuses to understand the reasons that holds us back. I long for your touch – can’t you see it! I long to be loved can’t you feel it! I long to be with you for the few moments in my life that will never come. What is it? Can’t you see I want you or are you too afraid of your feelings?

Whatever – my heart sees no reason, ‘not’ to be with you!!!

IMPOSSIBLE

Why does my heart long for the impossible love
Why do my eyes wait for the impossible dream
Why does my thought wander to the impossible land
Why does my breath long for the impossible smell
Why does my sensations long for the impossible touch
Why? Oh why does my life long for the impossible
Why are these things impossible….

L’enfant Plaza Hotel
Washington DC , 31 Oct 2007

Life never stops!

Life never stops!

When I lost my mom in April 2005, I thought I had lost everything in my life. I was angry with God, the world and everything around me. It was not something we deserved! My mother - like all mothers was the epitome of love and affection. I had never seen her get upset or lost -- she seems to have all the answers to our probs. She was my strength and inspiration and I couldn't accept her fading away -- 'just' like that.

Oh! man she had just started enjoying life after bringing up 2 children & she was all of 55! More than me - I was crying worried for my kid brother & Papa. She was the world to them. How would my dad carry on alone in the prime of his age? I was married & had a family to look forward to; my bro would also get married eventually; but my dad would be alone for the rest of his life. Then my grandparents - my mother's parent above the age of 88 yrs... did they deserve this?!

When it seemed impossible to get on with life, hope came knocking on our door. Exactly after a month, my mother transcended into the other realm, I discovered to my disbelief that I was pregnant! I was going to be a mom. My joy knew no bound!

The biggest happiness was the ray of hope I saw in my father’s eyes. The eyes that had dried tears, now gleamed with tears of joy. My baby was a celestial gift - a rainbow after the storm!

Though I had a healthy pregnancy, yet the emotional vacuum made me skeptical. I couldn't deal with my sorrow and joy at the same time. I had not cried enough neither could I be happy enough. It was most trying time of my life. If not for my family I would have collapsed.

Jan 5 2006, when I heard the first cry of my baby girl. I was overwhelmed - I felt complete. Did my mother feel the same when she held me for the first time? I will never know ....

I miss my mom every second of my life! There are times when I want to share my joys, sorrows and the little things that I feel when I see my daughter's pranks. I want to share notes with her on my childhood and that of my daughter. Sometimes, when I can't figure out how to deal with my daughter, I close my eyes and try & visualize how my mom would have handled me -- and voila! I have the perfect recipe.

As I write this -- today is my parent's wedding anniversary. She would have wanted us to be happy – so we are trying very hard. She lives in our heart and I'm sure she is back with us as KUHU – our little angel!


Life has many commas and 'if & buts', but only one full stop!



Feb 23, 2006
Delhi